Not good today

[miak]

Hello guys

Stress levels up today. Cant sleep. Cant eat. What will I do if we are denied? I cant loose all I have worked so hard for. I never had much, so what I do have I treasure. How did we let ourselfs get into this situation?

Oh and I decided to cut myself off from my closest friend, Bear, so deleted all my instant messaging apps... I am doing me and him a favour. I wont be a bad friend to him and I wont allow him to hurt me again.

His silence speaks a thousand words... email still active but not a word.

Hubby is like he doesnt exist. All I want is to have a good cry and scream my head off. But I cant. Its all building up and we havent even got to the proposal stage.

I honestly do not know if I can do this.

xxx

[kallis3]

Mia - we have all been where you are! I am sure you will fine so try not to worry about things.

I'm sorry to hear that you feel you can't speak to your friend but of course only you know what has happened there.

Have a good cry and scream and rant away on here. I know I've done it a few times.

You know where I am if you want to speak off forum - I am on a late today though so may not pick up on it until later.

Sending you virtual hugs and try and hang in there.

[luluj]

Stay strong - you have done the hardest thing and asked for help ! We will support you all the way !

[kallis3]

Hope you're feeling a bit better now moan

[Shining]

Feeling a bit more positive now? I remember these moments but soon you'll hopefully be looking back on them with an IVA in place. Hang in there x

[recovering]

Keep going...IT IS SO hard but we have to keep going [:I]

[Struzzo39]

Wow you sound just like I did 2 years ago when we were atrting our journey. Its not easy even within the iva, but it will get easier and definately be worth it in the long run. Stay strong and hang on in there x

[kallis3]

We do all have our dark days. This year is not starting well for us but we'll get through!

Hope you're feeling ok today mia.

[miak]

Good morning Jan and everyone

Thank you for the kind words. Yesterday was one of my darkest days. I am back at my normal work place today, its quieter and less stressful so I am hoping to relax a bit... may snooze though, only had three hours sleep.

Bear and I talked last nite. He surprised me. I was telling him goodbye and he was making me giggle. Friends... I tresure them all.

Lets hope today my brain stops thinking and going all stupid again. b***** thing is driving me crazy.

Lots of warm hugs everyone. I hope you all have a wonderful day. Thank you for being with me.

xxx

[footiemad]

Glad you're a bit brighter today Mia. Try and stay positive because things will work out for you. x

[kallis3]

Glad you are feeling better, just remember that you will get through this.

[miak]

Thank you guys.

xxx

PS - Who wants a cup of tea?

[kallis3]

Coffee for me please!!!

[plasticdaft]

Glad you are feeling better today!!

Hot chocolate for me!!

Paul

[kallis3]

Forgot to mention - mine must be decaff!!!!