made the call

[flumpy dog]

made the call.

feel horrible because i didnt realise the girl who emailed me had a bereavment so thats why she didnt reply.

anyway after 29 cups of tea i ttok the bull by his tail and called and yes i was in floods to the first girl then got a girl called laura and explained how sorry i was (said sorry a lot [:I])
I just told her what happened and said i will try and blag as much ot as poss although theres not loads and throw what i can at it. i will have it sorted before next review.
my hearts still in my mouth and i dont know why. suppose its because i really want this sorted.
thanx guys and i am SORRY again ![:o)]

gonna take me a while to calm down thanx xxx fd xx[xx(]

[Shining]

Hi FD, I had just asked on a previous post if you've managed to call. You weren't to know why she was off so don't feel bad about that.

I'm sure Laura was fine with you having the plan to repay before next review?

Now do calm down as it's done and you're fine. xx

[flumpy dog]

thnax sweetie im ok but i got myself in such a state i feel quite ill xx
ive got a few days off so will use that to chill.

thankgod for you lot xxxx[|)]

[kallis3]

Glad you have it sorted.

[flumpy dog]

thanx kal xx still friends ? lol xx

[flumpy dog]

never felt this nervous since starting the iva. dont understand ?

[kallis3]

Why would we not be friends? I still think you would benefit from a trip to the doctor to sort your anxiety out.

[flumpy dog]

im suffering low esteem thats been going on a while.

i have lost a lot of self confidence since doing this i know its helping but still feel a faliure but am trying to overcome it

what hasnt helped recently is there is a new unit at work where security clearance is required and i got turned down cos of this. i put in an appeal and my reviews etc but its taken forever.

add that to my sisters thing. suppose thats why i keep feeling bad and saying sorry low esteem xxx

would go to docs but shes horrible-hard to get changed

having you here has helped xx

[Skippy]

Can you not see another doctor? There are a lot of doctors at my practice and I can choose to see whoever I want.

If you can't see a different doctor you really need to look at changing as you do need to see someone. I think it's easier to change than it used to be so you might be ok.

[flumpy dog]

i didnt really think i was that bad but i must be coming across as quite troubled. good to have u guys here xxx

[kazzafunk]

I'm so proud of you for making that call! I too suffer from anxiety caused in the main by my ill health. Iwould ask to see a different dr in the practice and try to get some meds. You may only need a small dose. I have been on them for 16 years and they just keep me stable. No peaks and troughs!

Go and have another cuppa to celebrate![:D]

[flumpy dog]

thanx hun youre all so good. went to the park for a little stroll feel better already. ill see how i go but can feel that cloud lifting a little already xx

[kallis3]

Glad you are feeling better (apart from your trip to the bank!) but keep an eye on things and if you start to feel low again, please go to the doctor and get something on a temporary basis which will put you back on an even keel.

[flumpy dog]

yes its a good idea. i have a few days a/l so ill see how i feel but my main worry is over so that has made me feel immensely relieved thanx mum xxxxx[:o)]

[Foggy]

Well done on the call As for the doc .... I don't get on particularly well with my GP, (actually she's OK -- just can't help being a girl!) so just make appointments on days she isn't there !