Feeling blue :(

[MrsKnight]

I'm having such a down day today, it's gorgeous n sunny n I feel rubbish[:(] I've not had a bad day for a while yet, n my mental health worker said it's ok to get them n accept them, but I'm struggling today[:(]
I've had my work cut out supporting my parents, my dads just been getting so frustrated n down with my mum as she has been in nasty mode recently. My dad is so active n full of life n loves his gardening, fishing n walks. Yet my mums attitude is horrendous & I can't tell u what's it's been like to watch her detiriorate at rapied speed over the past few years. There is no will to live left in her, she has given up & is waiting to die, this attitude has been ongoing as far as I can remember.
My Hubby is working long hours, n there's paper work that's he's struggling with n wants me to do it, n I just have not got the brain power at the moment. But then I feel guilty cos he's working n I should do it to support him. With Hubby working long shifts, I've got they boys to look after n get to school n bed etc, I practically feel like a single parent sometimes.
Any of u on my FB will know my fear of dentists n I've just been to have some work done yesterday. Well today my tooth is not right, it's worse than b4, n I can't even bite a piece of toast. [:(]
I'm sorry for ranting n moaning, I'm just totally fed up n low, n I just wana curl up n disappear x

[nepensioner]

Sorry your a bit down today and really don't know what to suggest, but just send you hugs and hope you feel brighter tomorrow. It sounds as if you have a lot on your plate so please, just concentrate on yourself today

[pod_moo]

Hi,

I was feeling really down yesterday and everything seemed like a massive hill to climb so I know how you are feeling. Could you try and get out of the house just for half an hour whilst the sun is still out? I was suprised at just how much it lifted me doing this at lunch today. It really helped me to think rather than everything just swimming around in my head?

I hope you feel better x

[MrsKnight]

Thank you both, n sorry if I made anyone feel down just reading my post!

I did go n sit outside when my friend phoned me for a chat n I told her how rubbish I felt, she got me giggling about random stuff so felt abit better. Managed to wash up n put a wash in, so that was progress from me just sitting feeling rubbish!
Im going to lunch tomorrow with another friend, if my tooth behaves, its just been agony just biting on a chip So I may have to call the dentist in the morning n get my friend to take me. I hope its better by morning, I love our catch ups.
Ive just had a really blue down day n its thrown me because Ive not had one for a while & Ive probably being pushing myself abit to hard n trying to take on the world, like I normally do!

[MrsKnight]

any offers on ending someones horrendous pain to pull my tooth out - its blooming awful! Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! This can not be right just for a filling!

[Shining]

No help for the tooth Lyns as I'm petrified of dentists too...you've done one better than me and had a filing well done. I'm going to follow suit and try and stop my fear, you can help support me if you want?

Today a bad day tomorrow a good day.....one day at a time Lyns big hugs to you xx

[leaKybrain]

Oh Lyns, it sounds like the filing might be touching a nerve. I had probs recently. If you don't go back and get it looked at it could turn to an abcess and then its anti biotics. i'm having root filling at mo for that reason.

As for feeling down, there's no blooming wonder, and you are definately entitled to feel down, grumpy, angry and growly !!!! Make sure you do take time for yourself as I know this can make a difference. think of something you would really like to do. itgs got to be for you and not for others for a change.

[MrsKnight]

Oh thank you Lesley, I will support you with the dentist fear, its not easy & some people just do not understand, but I do.
I think the fear goes hand in hand with whats happened in the past or the fear of not knowing. But I know & feel its part of your health regime, they are the only ones to spot things that a doctor can not inside your mouth. I want n feel I have to try so my boys dont get the same fear Ive had all my life.
I still remember the days being about 7 saying to the dentist "I do not care about having false teeth by 18 at least I can hand them to you to look at!" and the times I used to bite or kick him in the head!

Thank you Lesley & Im your dentist buddy if you want too x

[Lisa2009]

Hope tomorrow will be a better day for you xxx

My head has been all over the show lately. My MS relapsed for the 2nd time in 6 months so i have had another course of steroids. Steroids hare me!!!! i get rashes and all kinds of side effects.

We have had lovely sunshine today and as always i spent the day in bed. Sometimes i think i sleep my life away but i just cant help it.

Anyway Lynz, keep your chin up, keep smiling and stay strong xxx

[MrsKnight]

I wana cry Leakybrain - I dont want that! I will phone in the am if its not settled down as I can not eat! N they day I have felt n had I want to eat!

Lesley if you read this I still will help you xxxxxx

[MrsKnight]

Lisa thank you,

My moans n groans are nothing compared to yours, just a rubbish day for me but gladly a one off rather than everyday.
I totally admire you with your MS, as my mum has it too. Im taking my Mum to the GP soon myself as she has had it for so long, the records have not being updated that its not showing up from when it went from paper work to PC!!!! Mums on no medication for anything to do with her MS & the pins n needles/electric shocks n pains are with her 24/7.
So Im taking her to get sorted in some way or other.

I love your FB Lisa, your a god send of hope to me xxxxx

[Lisa2009]

Its hard going and i really feel for your mum and for youu watching her like that. My kids hate it and im probably not nearly as bad as your mum.
I'm on loads of medication and anti depressants. To be honest, if it wasnt for the Prozac i probably wouldnt function well at all. They are my little box of hope and strength.
Some Epilepsy tablets work well for the pins and needles and electric shocks so maybe they will try some with your mum?

[MrsKnight]

Im just so upset that she has been forgotten in the system and lost. Im going to take her myself to the GP n take over that side of things because Ive had enough of her suffering & I want to help her. I held her like a child last week n she was just crying n trying to tell me, it hurts me so much. Im on anti depressants too & know they can work wonders, but my Mum is 70 this weekend & I wonder if its gone on to long. Shes had it since before I was born (34 years ago) or MS was not fully understood & never been properly treated, i dont know whats gona help but I wana try - thank you lisa x

[kallis3]

Just caught up with this Lyns, hope you are feeling better today and that the tooth has settled down.

I don't like the dentist but go every six months for my check up.

I was at a workshop yesterday for managing stress and depression and it was very interesting.

[MrsKnight]

Hi Jan, I'm feeling alot better today n I'm so relieved to say my tooth has calmed down. I think the clamp they put on it to set it in place upset it & with me having injections they were a bit rough!
So I can go for my catch up n crown carvery dinner today - yeah!

Thank u to everyone reading my ranting, It was one of my down days n everything felt about 10x worse than normal, I'm going to try n have a good day today x