Just wanted to say

[freelili]

Hiya

I just wanted to say thanks to Wizz for the card and to wish everyone a happy Christmas and new year. Doesnt time fly?

Its been 3 years since I became a member and lots of water (and some sewage) went under the bridge since then.

I have been through the debt thing and got my life back, some bad things happened but life goes on. The old existence has gone and I am living.

I said that I wanted to leave the forum, earlier in the year when grandad was dying, I really wanted to look forward and not back but I also wanted to give something back to the forum before I left for good.

I used to update news now and again and keep up with what was going on with other members, I dont seem to be doing that anymore.

I dont know whats going on with everyone anymore. I do hope that whatever bad is going on, it ends soon or an answer is found. I hope everyone finds a brand new life with happy times ahead. Just like I did.

This is the last post, thanks to eveyone for supporting me, befriending me and helping through some really black times.

Free Lily is flying away.

Goodluck and goodbye.

[kallis3]

Lily, please don't leave.

We value you on and off the forum. Your advice is excellent and you give great support to people as well.

The forum will be a poorer place for you, and even if you don't post often, we love it when you come back.

You have my email addy and anytime you want a chat you know where I am.

You will be missed if you don't come back.

[kallis3]

I could not have put that better myself ladyh.

Don't go Lily.

[freelili]

I am a funny soul. If I cant do something completely it bugs me. This forum, well I dont know where I would have been without it way back when.

I just cant keep up with people. I am happy now and I get bad memories at this time of year here. This time 3 years ago I was scared of BR, I had a date but felt so relieved that it was all going to end, then it was taken away, in the worst way.

I think about things too much. I read things and feel I have to answer but I cant, well sometimes I do but you know? an incomplete job bothers me. There it is, totally honestly.

I am sorry, I feel bad that I cant keep up with the stories like your poor Hira.

I dont know what else to say.

[Shining]

Lilli, it's no consolation to how you feel, but I don't keep up either and do feel guilty that I can't and often feel lost with names etc., However, I do try and know that in the past you've given me lots of support and had those right words that meant so much to me at that time, I value your posts and quality far outweighs quantity in my opinion. All the best Lilli and I do hope you continue to post.

[kallis3]

Post when you want Lily. You know that you can offer support to so many people on here.

I enjoy your emails and knowing what is going on with you, your family and your pets.

You don't have to post often if you don't want and there are always people on here who will remember you - Skippy and I aren't going anywhere anytime soon.

[freelili]

Its not that I dont know what to say, I lose track. My internet is really bad. I spend a lot of time doing my work.

I was so grateful to the people who were around when Mum died, they supported me, especially Skippy. I was really grateful for the support when Coley boy was ill also. I just didnt want to take and not give back.

As it happens, Coley boy went missing today, I was a bit worried, I had a hair appointment at 4.30 and he still wasnt back and by then silently frantic. I left it as late as possible to drive into town. Then it was mega packed and it seemed like no parking spaces (at 4 Oclock for goodness sake?) And I didnt get petrol yesterday when I should done, you know what its like? Your petrol light has been on long enough for you to keep staring at it and the whole world decides to grind to a halt. Plus, did that hairdress faff? I dont mind the cut, the washing is quite nice, that faffing at the end? I hate it when they faff. On my way back, sighing a massive relief to be paying for petrol, (after a gaze at the dead straight, shiny new locks in the service station window. I get a text from Aaron...He is BACK. Now he is lying full stretch and fast asleep on the sofa. I am guess is its been a long day.

I shall do my best. Thanks

[kallis3]

I'm so glad he is back amd fine Lily.

It won't take long for you to catch up at any time. The old timers are always around.

[moretolife]

hey there Lily...I just want to add my wee bit to everyone else...I know what you mean re keeping up...I find it hard yet know that I have got such a lot of support over last 18 mths...I still read most days but know that I cant give any answers...

Keep coming on as and when you can..I always look for your "flying bird" and know that the post will be great to read..often with deep insight and/or humour.....so I will add my plea....

love to you

[freelili]

Thanks MTL

Have you ever had one of those moments? When you feel I cant do all of this anymore, I dont read much here but I do think. I also post on another forum, to do with disabilities. I am a lot behind with college as I broke my hand and I thought, I have to sack some of these niggles. I just decided to sack the forums. I realise I dont do much here physically anymore. I was valued on the other forum, I cant do it anymore, its really hard to keep up. Some of the stories are really sad. (they gave me a bird on the other forum also, flying over gates). Anyway I was just trying to reduce things, I dont want to appear selfish.

I am very happy, I am looking forward to stressmass. I have even almost finished the shopping (mostly online). I will email you MTL. I just hope you get it.

Love to all

PS He is still fast asleep. Looking so gorgeous, I am so going to munch him.

[kallis3]

Stick with us Lily. Even if you don't post often, your input is valued by all.

[Julie]

Hi Lily,

So nice to hear from you, but so sad to think you won't be posting anymore. I understand your reasons and admire you for letting everyone know.All posters will miss you, old and new. Us oldies for the magical way you have with words and the update of the adventures of Coley boy. The newbies will miss out on the benefit of such a caring, funny(in a nice way) strong, wise lady. I will always remember how you supported Fergiedoggy with the vision of green slime....brings a smile to my face everytime.

You've also been a great support off forum too and I will always be greatful for that.

Please stay in touch, one way or another. Love to you Cole and your family xx

[Skippy]

Hi Lily, I'm sorry, I was out last night and I've only just seen this.

From a selfish point of view I really don't want you to go, but if you do I can understand and wish you all the best for the future.

It definitely won't be the same on here without you - as the others have said it doesn't matter how much you post, it's what you say. You have a knack of saying the right thing at the right time, are sympathetic and make people feel at ease.

I'm so glad Cole is back safe and sound, and please keep in touch off the forum xxx

[Lisa2009]

Lily, i am with the others on this and really dont want you to leave. Obviously its your decision but you really would be missed. Just pop in every now and then and say hello and let us all know how you are doing.
You are a real valued friend to us all xxx

[freelili]

Awww youre all so lovely, I am quite choked.

I had a chat with Jan last night, she did make me laugh. I have just come out of plaster and went to the hairdressers but my right hand is weak and twisting it makes it painful. I was struggling to pay for the parking and I dropped all the money out of my purse trying to use my left hand and trying not to twist the right. People were really tutting behind me and Jan said you should have given your hand a good work out with a two fingered guesture. I wont even mention actually putting the ticket in the machine at the barrier, some people are impatient and nasty pieces of work. In the end the man in car park box thing came over and sorted it. He didnt rush either, increasing the frustration. He was a little bit nice looking as well.

I am food shopping today, should be fun.