I am concerned about this letter

[freelili]

I am yo yo ing DMB

Just a bad day, I back now I have turned a corner, thanks though the support is great. I am looking ahead now, grieving and positive at the same time, no point in looking back is there?

Skippy, I am a footie fan Aston villa I am afraid, my boys are mad about them also. I used to go with my Dad when I was small, we do that fantasy league thing on the net, my eldest is one point above me, last week I sold two players and they scored, bought one who got sent off after 4 mins for punching someone, my son was delighted.
LILY

[scaredkez]

lily you need to go through this process to bring answers and a closure, there will be days when you are up and days when you are down, you need to grieve amidst all your problems but everyone here is with you all the way and i mean that .
love kerri

[freelili]

Thanks Kerri

I really dont know what happened yesterday, it was my worst day but I slept better than I have in weeks. I just felt like giving up, I had loads of calls and that letter I just couldnt cope with it.

I let go of all the what-iffs and the why's just accepted that I cant change it, for the first time, this morning my mind was clear and not clogged with it all. I am sad, but not obsessed with finding out what I will never know. If this makes sense.

I hope youre doing OK, thoughts are with skippy and uncle

LILY

[Skippy]

Perhaps I shouldn't say this Lily but I am a Man Utd fan, and have been since I developed a massive crush on Bryan Robson 21 years ago - I still have a soft spot for him even now!!! Dave is a Chelsea fan, so we have some friendly arguements about that. We both have a fantasy team online - Dave is quite a bit ahead of me which I'm not too happy about!

Three down, fifty seven to go until freedom!

[Skippy]

Thanks for your kind thoughts Lily - I am thinking about you as well. When I had my bad day a couple of days ago all I kept thinking was I won't be able to able to afford flowers for my uncle when the time comes. That really bothered me, but Dave has said he will help, although I still feel bad.

Sorry, I don't mean to keep sounding morbid - it's not like me, I'm usually quite strong.

Three down, fifty seven to go until freedom!

[scaredkez]

oh dear skippy just to make light of things my hubby here when reading your post and he said is ther still man u and chelsea fans still out there, liverpool through and through see even though he's a scot, lily all will come good in the end see i am going to win the euro tonight,
i felt bad this week myself its so strange these emotions, i am trying to think positive when the phone doesn't ring i am on a high we have scrimped this month and tonight we had a few £ left and my hubby bought a couple bottles of wine as we never go anywhere, feel guilty but enjoying them and i must thank the forum for the vouchers they sent as we are going to have a special dinner on sunday with my parents, like a 2nd xmas dinner only this time we have provided it plus still got vouchers left thanks
kerri

[Skippy]

Hope you enjoy the wine Kerri! We had a takeaway tonight - I only got paid yesterday and haven't been to Asda yet and neither of us fancied fish fingers! It made a nice change, although I am stuffed now!

I'm off to bed now - night night everyone x

Three down, fifty seven to go until freedom!

[scaredkez]

night skippy

[freelili]

Night Skippy night Kerri

Havent we just turned into the waltons?

LILY

[scaredkez]

i think we have jon boy