Thank you Viki.I'll be honest here and say that at no point in my life have i ever felt so ashamed of myself. Yes i have had a great time spending the money i have borrowed, seen the world, taken courses etc etc.I have met some amazing friends on my travels who have helped support me better myself.The NHS are paying for me to study and further my career at Uni as a reward and i'm so grateful for this.However, it's shocking just how quickly one can fall behind in repayments,i cannot do any overtime as i was before because my studies take up so much time.I've always met my responsibilities, and i guess feeling out of control now, hasn't really done my self confidence any good.I want to pay my debts off of course, but things are getting so expensive these days. I'm waffling, dare i say i had a good bawl this morning when i woke up received a phone call from one of my creditors and 7am ! this is such a horrid situation to be in, and i don't want to get into any trouble with the law, that's how paranoid i am, fearing the law !!!! Pathetic. #13;#10;Mark